Dreams And Cliff Jumping...
I have always wondered at the term "fear of success" that apparently a lot of people struggle with. It never really made sense to me to work your butt off to accomplish a dream, only to back out at the last minute and leave all that effort unaccounted for...a destiny unfulfilled. Uncharted territory is a scary thing for some. You spend countless hours pushing your dream up a steep mountain only to find that what is waiting for you at the top is a cliff to jump off of. Its go time...do or die...where the rubber meets the road... all that jazz. Every bit of preparation, planning, and execution culminates in having to present yourself to the world for their judgment.
That is exactly where I am at right now. I am moving into a new season where all my cards are on the table. The blood, sweat, and tears I have poured into this EP, music video, and really my music career hopes are ready to be displayed to the world. Locked away in a cramped studio for months I have gotten used to just working behind the scenes, the only approval needed was my own. My private creative space was a safe place. Now that part is over and the next chapter is not a safe one.
Because dreams were never meant to be safe.
So I sat down this morning and with cup of coffee in one hand and all my courage in the other, I began to email my music to record labels and management companies. Hitting the send button was tougher than I expected it to be. Will they like it? Will they LOVE it? Will the tell me to not quit my day job? Will they even take the time to respond?
I have no idea what is going to happen... and to tell you the truth it doesn't matter.
Those record labels don't control my destiny. Myself and the God who created me is in charge of that. Whether I succeed in my wildest dreams or have to walk away, I know that I know that I know I gave it all I had. So less than a week away from a competition that could give me major exposure and a national tour booking, and my music in the hands of major labels, I have officially made that jump off the cliff.
I guess I never really subscribed to this fear of success thing and love taking the plunge, but there is always that voice in the dusty dark corner of my mind that keeps me aware of the fact that this thing might not fly. I have learned to kick that voice right in the teeth before it gets more than a few words out.
What do you do when that voice speaks to you? I know it can seem easier to just hold on to what you've got, keeping it untainted from criticism, but then we just end up standing at the top of the mountain and waiting...
Take the plunge with me. If its a music career like mine, application to a prestigious school, a marriage proposal...whatever it is...GO FOR IT! Your dreams were meant to come true but they won't happen by standing still. You have a purpose and a destiny that needs to shine bright for the world to see.